Write Crap

Write one crapy thing a day. That's what I heard. But the on the other side I hear that quality and what's good is all subjective. Is this the whole "Another mans garbage; is another mans treasure."

The plan is to get back in to writing every day. But what to actually write about had been struggle. As the future of this site. I think it's weird that it is so personal and that it's being sent out so anyone can read it.

Deep down what I am really looking for is a community of people that I can share my struggles, fears and problems and my wins with. But not just anyone but others that understand the where I'm coming from.

When you're a pastor you don't really get to do that with just anyone. Or at least that's the stigma. "If my pastor doesn't have his crap together then why would I come to him."

I don't have my life together. Haha. I struggle with depression, self-doubt, escapism, and selfishness. I'm an introvert at heart. It takes a lot out of me to have relationships and talk to people.

I also suck as a business person. My freelance creative business is always doing either really good when the clients come in or really low when I don't remember to put my self out there.

Just realized there are a lot of "I"s in this. Need to figure out a better way to create that benefits others. That's normal what get's my out of my head. Thinking about others. Which is not the first thoughts of an introvert.

Until next time. Have a wonderful day.